a bitter hello...

My favorite new Fall songs

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 15:20:42 GMT

John Mayer - Stop This Train
Pete Yorn - Undercover & Ice Age
Blood Brothers - Set Fire To The Face On Fire
Landon Pigg - Can't Let Go & Tin Man
The Killers - Uncle Johnny & Bones

check em out....

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 04:31:11 GMT

what happened to everyone
i haven't talked to anyone i used to know is forver it seems
i was watching GROSSE POINTE BLANK the other day
and i started asking myself
would i even go to my 10 year high school reuion?
and would anyone else for that matter?
what happened to the band i used to be in when i was 16 or the one i was in when i was 19
what happened to all those guys and everyone else?
what happened to my sister?
what ever happened to my high school crush?
what happened to my real father?
what is going on in FLORIDA right now?
what is going on in Orlando, is it any different since i left?
do people think about me...or am i dead?
why can i not fully grow facial hair yet?

"Every Famous Last Word..."

Tue, 02 May 2006 03:41:55 GMT

im so fucking frustrated right now...
im so broke...i have like no money
i have taken on so much stuff in the past few weeks
im recording 2 bands this month, one im not getting paid for
which kind of sucks now...and im producing both
"Drive-By Romance" and "BlackPowderFuzzBox" are the 2 very different bands that i am producing, recording, mixing, and editing...
i am also playing on both records, not to mention writing and demo-ing for Rebecca Vs Mexico
The A BITTER HELLO record is actually making it back in my hands this week, so i can finally finish it this summer, which means
that i have been working on it for a year exactly...come this July, but basically i only worked on it for a week July 05 and one more time in June of 06, i will release it in July 06
Oh yeah, i also am helping Ashley move into her new apartment this week, plus school 3 times a week, piano practice 1 hour per day, and working 44 hours a week at the store...

i've been building up my studio though...i now have, own, bought, or borrowed for a long period of time...
Fender Telecaster
Gibson SG-1
Les Paul Studio
Guild D55
Goodtime 5-string Banjo
Fender Percission Bass
GEM Digital Weighted Key Piano
Alesis Analog Synth
ROLAND Digital Drum Set
2 piece Glockenspiel
2 snare drum heads w/brushes
Triangle. SleighBells
Harmonica
Concertina Small Accordian
1*12 Fender Deluxe Tube Amp
2*12 RMS pro-drive amp
AT 4047 Condenser Mic
Shure SM57
Sennhiser 609
DigiDesign MBOX2
M-Audio Studiophile BX5a Monitors
Apple IMAC G5
ProTools LE 7

i need to practice more...

organized chaos

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 05:06:06 GMT

i saw one of the greatest and most innovative bands ever tonight
WILCO
they were incredible
at one point Jeff Tweedy was playing guitar and holding everything together
while it seemed everything around him was falling apart...beautiful noise
i can hardly explain it...ME!!!
i always have something to say, especially when it comes to music...but i really dont know what to say
or even how to explain what happened tonight...

anyways...school is almost over, but i am taking 2 classes over the summer...
Intro To Voice Training
and Piano...i am just continuing with it cos if i take a few months off, i wont practice and i will suck
im not sure what i am taking for next fall though

i really like Samuel Adams brew
white ale
winter lager
boston lager
i think pretty much all of them...i think they even have an assorted 12 pack you can get

i dont drink Rolling Rock or Killians anymore...maybe i will if i come back to Florida to visit

im naked

how do you do this again...?

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:27:52 GMT

everyone has gone to myspace
im bored with it...im going back to the LJ...plus nobldoy reads this anymore, so i guess i can use it as a real journal
so im gonna put a bunch of serious thoughts and stuff on here...
so here i go
i really like this mainstream rock song on the radio, its called "HATE ME" by Blue October
i almost cried when i first heard it..."what a pussy i am" i thought
here's the lyrics

"I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say you that love me just to put in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
And in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes bright and I held your face in my hand
And then fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like is used to be
And then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you"

things i've done...part 1

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 05:27:22 GMT

jumped into a public pool naked in the middle of the night (a number of time actually)
fell in love with someone who didn't feel the same
fell in love with someone who did feel the same
danced in a gazeebo late at night during a high school prom
saved my mothers life
conceived, wrote, and recorded an enitre record in 6 days with no intention of making a record in the first place and having no material to begin with
made grilled cheese for someone and nearly burnt my house down
threw the biggest and probably the best party ever known to anyone to exsist in Citrus County
played in a band that was the gateway for all other bands to ever play in a 30 mile radius in a town that was killing young people
went on a mini-tour to Baton Rouge, LA where i almost bought coke from a black guy named LEO at a gas station
invented THE DAN CAVE (the cubby hole in FRANK THE TANK where i slept) and THE DAN DRINK (you know how i do)
went on a crystal meth binge where i hit rock bottom...and knew it
got raped a few weeks before i graduated high school (literally)
got enough courage to get up and move 700 miles away from a place i've never left
put myself through school with no help
ran a retail record store by myself during XMAS while boss was in jail
said sorry 758348548506946584398584 times
made fun of someone because they say "five"
shattered my wrist in 14 pieces
did a ball of coke with lee in less then 1 hour and almost died
was in love with the same person for almost 5 years
wrote songs that people know the lyrics too
drank a bottle of red wine in 5 mintues and DID DIE
created REBECCA VS MEXICO and A BITTER HELLO

....to be continued

"Why I Don't Go To Church version 1.2"

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 23:50:56 GMT

Rebecca vs. Mexico will be streaming a few new songs this month
im finishing up this new epic like song, but its not as long as you might think an epic should be
so be on the look out, i'll post later this week when its up on the new myspace account for Rebecca

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 06:08:48 GMT

feb 24th 2006
Mr. Sheik at The Birchmere outside of DC
its on...once again

read this...its from duncan

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 03:02:40 GMT

White Limousine
December 2nd, 2005 by duncan >

So the single is going to radio. One of the radio reps at Rounder asked me on behalf of some of the stations she talks to what the song is really about.ext week. Is White Limo about our American Idol, reality-tv culture, or is it an anti-bush song? Here was my reply …

Hi Katrinka,

It’s both. In my humble opinion, the tacky, wasteful, over-hyped part of our entertainment culture and the scary political reality we now face in this country are both symptoms of a deeper problem. I think the problem is philosophical. It seems like many of us in this country find powerful ways to either not look into what’s going on in the rest of the world, or to rationalize the state of the world by means of some messianic fantasy. Whether you are too busy reading about Brangelina to read a book about 20th century middle-eastern history, or you just assume that what happens in the middle-east is a biblical foregone conclusion, those are both ways of avoiding the more difficult reality of our complicated world. It is Bush that I’m poking fun at in the second verse of the song and his “mission accomplished” speech that I’m referencing at the end, but I’m not really villainizing him. I feel bad for him that, because his world-view is so inaccurate, he makes such terrible decisions. I also feel bad for people on the streets of New York when, on the anniversary of 9/11, a fire-truck covered in American flags flies down the street with Josh Groban’s “Wings of an Eagle” blaring from it’s speakers, assaulting everyone with the worst possible combination of Jingoism and bad taste that you could possibly concoct. But, there it is, and I really do wish Josh, George, Brad, Jen, and Angelina a holiday season filled with good friends, family, warmth and all the happiness that freedom can buy.

Cheers,
DS

"it won't snow where you're going"

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 05:34:34 GMT

there is this band called PARK and i've been listening to them for awhile
they are so amazing, like i've listened to them, but didn't really pay attention
they have an album called "IT WONT SNOW WHERE YOU"RE GOING"
everyone should listen to this record...it sounds depressing at first
but its really not...its just true...so get it and listen to it...i think of 3 people when i hear this record
and if they heard it, they think the same...
gonna go and listen to this record more and find hidden meanings...
late

"if im just bad news...then you're a liar"

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 07:45:00 GMT

i hate you....FLORIDA
i dont miss it at all...i miss some friends, that still care about me
i've been off track a little bit lately, but im back
i just started working on my studio here in my own bedroom
its coming along pretty well

i hate how people ditch friends for dick...or puss...whatever

oh by the way, anyone who hasn't called me in awhile, dont worry about, i hardly even notice anymore

i hate how things are...but its exactly how they make it...
i hate how close friends get so consumed in relationships (boyfriend/girlfriend/lovers/hotbeef injection partners)
i hate how they say everything is the same, and they still feel the same way they did before they met their ugly significant other
i mean...i dont care...fuck you

imiss amyc...bubblebee
and mr.wondergem...and barry...and crystal meth=the drug itself
...imiss cheesehead and jim-bo
i miss K.June.G
miss yanniandmom
i wanna get back all my old friends...well some of them...okay just the few above,and possibly some others....

i should be sleeping...i gotta meeting tomorrow morning at work
then back to the homestudio to figure out PRO TOOLS many many plug in features

i listen to versus all day and hate you all nite....

And I go:
What, what's the matter?
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing-wrong Mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't
you get me a pepsi?
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi

purevolume.com/cassino

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 06:20:47 GMT

ex-northstar
nick is still singing...
he's still better than me
......for now

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 15:09:20 GMT

i just found my biological father on peoplefinder.com
which i thought would be kind of cheesy of me
but since i've never known my real dad, i thought i'd just check
it costs 39.95 to find out he is married, and has 2 previous addresses in Cummin, GA
and a possible current address in Gainesville, GA
no phone number listed, which sucks, cos i thought about maybe calling him and saying
"hey, im dan, and you haven't spoken to me in 22 years, buts thats okay...just letting you know, that i'm fine, and everything worked out for, sort of..."

so here i sit with a address that may or may not lead me to someone, who in all actuality, i dont care if i ever speak to...maybe a short letter will do fine...

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 21:43:02 GMT

yay...
barry is here
he is super sick though
he might have a bad case of HIV
hopefully he'll be okay
i haven't seen amy and maki in like 2 days
really busy with school, and work, and eating nachos and salads with bacon bits

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 00:50:49 GMT

listening to CARSOX COX on myspace
he's the best
practicing piano right now
i have to learn like 7 songs before tuesday
okay bye

TRUE BELIEVER

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 04:38:49 GMT

rebecca vs. mexico will be recording a cover song for their EP which will be recorded in JAN 2006
this is the song...one of my favorites...cant wait to actually cover and record it

"True Believer" (Richard Baluyut, James Baluyut, Fontaine Toups, Pat Ramos)

Sex, bloody on your dress, spelling out a giddy SOS
Sucking on your thumb, flip the man the bird till it goes numb
You’re wilding in the park, kicking out headlights in the dark
Groping for the switch, you turn the boys on,
you’re such a bitch

I’ll be following you
Watching your every move
Cuz I’m a true believer, I’m an idolizer
And I want you

Print of a whisper-kiss, go out on a date with your therapist
Skinning up your knees, asking him to marry you, say please
But you’re just a tease, flutter like a kite stuck in the trees
A human sacrifice, take her if you wanna role the dice

I’ll be following you (watching your every move)
Watching your every move (I’ll be following you)
Cuz I’m a star-crossed loser, I’m a colorizer
And I want you

Sun, yellow on the bed, prison bars will taunt you
till you’re dead
Where did they all go? Hear the voice of God on the radio
They’re pounding on your door,
knowing you can’t leave your room anymore
Faith is all you’ve got, make up memories that you forgot

True believer, I’m an idolozer
And I want you
Star-crossed loser, I’m a colorizer
And I want you

(I’ll be following you)
(Watching your every move)
(Wanting to be with you)
(I’ll be following you)
(Watching your every move)

I want you

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 04:19:20 GMT

im listening to old Y*H songs
i still like them for some reason
anyways...
bayside vs capeside is a really good song
so is im pretty sure i died right after that
and of course condoms aisle 6

okay....im tired

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 05:46:10 GMT

my phone is not working
im not ignoring anyones calls
i just cant tell if you're calling
everything sucks
i saw SAVES THE DAY tonite
they haven't played in literally 5 years
they were incredible
early november put a really good show on
then my phone broke
and it took me 74384623 hours to get home
i called off worked for the first time in a year
im sleeping all day and taking care of my school stuff
im naked
i dont get boners anymore
dang it!!!

the albums and the people

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 05:23:58 GMT

okay...so i've been thinking about this for quite sometime

AJ PARKER-"3rd Eye Blind" Third Eye Blind & "Something To Write Home About" The Get Up Kids
Katie Garrick-"Swiss Army Romance" Dashboard Confessional & "Life In Genereal" MxPx & "Goddammit" ALK3
Amy Colasanti-"Pretend You're Alive" LoveDrug & "Good Mourning" ALK3
Cori Maley-"Heavier Things" John Mayer & "Humming" Duncan Sheik & "Pollyanna" Northstar
Amy Headlines-"Let Go" Nada Surf
Y*H-"Deja Entendu" Brand New
Laura Bittner-"Your Favorite Weapon" Brand New & "Any Y*H demo ever recorded"
Lee Woodruff-"Worship & Tribute" Glassjaw
Jimmy Dean Bloodworth- "Songs Not To Get Married To" Reggie and The Full Effect
Jessica Brown-"Room For Squares" John Mayer & "Everything You Ever Wanted To Know About Silince" Glassjaw
Jen Hulse-"Stay What You Are" Saves The Day
Barry LaFond-"Gordon" Barenaked Ladies
Chris Wondergem-"Daylight" Duncan Sheik & "Maybe I'll Catch Fire" ALK3
Justin Nickerson-"Stop All The World" Howie Day
Mom and Jessica & Family-"So Much For The Afterglow" Everclear "August Everything After" Counting Crows
Ashley Johnson-"Another Intervention" Down To Earth Approach
Also..."Love Is Hell" & "Cold Roses 2nd Disc" Ryan Adams...............
.......................................................................
Brandon Roberts-"New Found Glory" NF
Amanda Gibbons-"Where You Want To Be" Taking Back Sunday & "Futures" JimmyEatWorld
Jackie Northstar-"Is A Real Boy" Say Anything
Christi Russo- ARSON WELLES 3-song mix cd
Brian VanOver-"Music For The Morning After" Pete Yorn
Brian Fields-"Punk in Drublic" NoFx
Jorge Fossalrolipoli-"A Musical Massacre" Beatnuts
John Summers-"Art of Storytelling Vol 2" Slick Rick

but lets just get back to the basics...cos i always come back to this...maybe its a sign

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:17:24 GMT

I dont care who you've been SLEEPING with these days
You're outta my hair
It's growing just above my smiling face that I wear
EVERY NITE I DRINK myself to sleep
Not thinking about you
Not thinking about anything at all

I don't care who you've been dining with these days
It's MORE THAN FAIR
Much rather be drinking anyways
With my friend JACKIE
Who lives so fucking far away
Yet not as far as you
Even though you live right down my fucking street

And I'm tired of SLEEPING with myself
I'm tired, all these DRINKS and DRUGS no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend JACKIE can tell me what to do

I dont care who you've been KISSING on these days
It's out of my hands
and in my mouth with such a pleasant taste
I need a BEER to wash it all away without a trace
And then i'll DRINK 23 more
To wipe this STUPID SMILE OFF MY FUCKING FACE

I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all those drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend JACKIE can tell me what to do

"to the person who thinks of me and them after reading this song"

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 05:04:28 GMT

"Disintegration"

I've spent my last nights
strung up and pulled tight.
Holding out, sleep and grow.
An answer comes without a please:
'Do what you want.'

[Chorus:]
Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Hushed with a finger
Don't say you'll never when you might,
or just another time.
This POISON comes instruction free.
Do what you want, but I'm DRINKING

Wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a CIGARETTE you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

LIE lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh

"how to feel like you're nothing to no one"

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 19:56:20 GMT

i got my computer...finally
its the sex...i tried to fuck it...but it was really hard to do
its a I-Mac g5 17-inch widescreen...
went to the used cd store today after class
picked up the following...
Summercamp-"pure juice"
Beatnuts-"the originators_
Paul Westerberg-"14 songs"
Mr. Sheik "S/T & Humming" which are my 2nd copies...most likely my backups just in case
got school at 7pm...gotta leave soon to the catch the metro
seeing Nada Surf very soon...
get to see RILO KILEY and COLDPLAY for free this friday
Brazilian Girls are playing 9:30club this Saturday...i cant wait...

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 04:48:56 GMT

Mr. Sheik in one of his finest moments
soft-spoken
simple
short
to the direct point where your feelins begin and end
always seems to hit close
a writer should be so lucky

"UNTIL"
I wait this time
Just you in mind
I hope
I pray
For you to stay
Your call from there
Somehow
Somewhere
I hope
I pray
I know I’ll wait
Until you’re here
Until you’re here
Until

Rebecca Vs. Mexico

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 01:06:36 GMT

Okay so, a side project has just begun...
Maki Maruyama and I...have started a new music project
(this has nothing to do with ABH...and sounds nothing like it...if you believe that)
just when you thought it couldn't sound more different or experimental...just wait till the EP

Rebecca VS Mexico
is the tentative project name

this is more about Maki than I...
Maki is a Fine Arts Major who Graduated from the Corcoran in DC
we both have very different influences and sounds in our life
his top five artists are
1. Number Girl (Japanese Group)
2. VERSUS (New York Indie Band from the 90's)
3. The Pixies
4. Shiina Ringo (Japanese Pop-Singer)
5. The Breeders

We both do Vocals, Bass, Acoustic & Electric Guitars, Piano, Synth,
and whatever else we can get our hands on to make musical fusion

Check for a new MYSPACE music profile in the next few months...

there's no point in any of this...

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 05:19:51 GMT

im never on the internent anymore
but i also dont own a computer right now
anyways...The Levine is really good
i learned more in 90 mintues about recording then i did in 3 years of being in a band
and recording more than a dozen times
so its really exciting to learn something that i actually like and care about
anyways, i've been in contact with Mr. Carson Cox...the record is resuming in full production
i've also decided to write more to the record probably 2 new songs...
im getting some new gear soon along with a new computer...Carson will produce & mix the tracks in Tampa

deathcab is extremely popular in the DC area
and has manage to sell out 2 shows in a row at the 9:30 club
with in 2 days of going on sale
im so freakin upset
but thats okay...cos i get to see Nada Surf in like 2 weeks...
im tired...
goodnite